Selamat Menyambut Lebaran.........

No words can express the gratitude that I felt this year. To be able to stay alife till today and be happy with mylife without having any 'major' problems. Hey...what a life without problem. I like my new job, my current state of affairs and ALL.. I'm glad that GOD gives me the chance to be here and celebrate this Eid with mt family... Although.,... this is Month End CLose (MEC) which means I'm going to be super busy but .... still be able to celebrate Lebaran is precious to me...

SO WITH THIS GIVEN OPPORTUNITY... i WISH TO ALL SELAMAT HARI RAYA AND MAAF ZAHIR BATIN...........

FROM ME AND MYSELF!!

MY LAST SPEECH TO PSMB

It is not something that I wanted to share but more like a memoir....

As i read this speech I fell sad ........

30 MAY 2011 - NEW OFFICE...

WORKING AT MY NEW OFFICE MADE ME REALISE THAT THERE WERE HUGE DIFFERENCES WITH MY PREVIOUS OFFICE.

THE FIRST THING THAT THEY DID WAS GIVING US (NEWCOMER) A SET OF STATIONARY...LIKE..."THIS IS A SET OF YOUR STATIONARY THAT YOU WOULD REQUIRE WHILE WORKING HERE...."... COMPARED TO MY PREVIOUS OFFICE, YOU NEED TO FILL IN A FORM TO REQUEST FOR IT...AND IT DEPENDS ON OTHERS THAT MIGHT TOLD YOU THE PROCEDURE OR YOU'VE TAKEN THE MOST COURAGES ACTION..TO ASK THEM...

THEN , THEY'LL GUIDE YOU TO THE STORE ROOM, AND EVERYBODY WOULD BE GIVEN ONE NEW LAPTOP AND A BAG... AND YOU'RE BEING GUIDED TO INSTALL EVERYTHING THAT YOU MIGHT NEED TO USE AS INITIAL STEPS...

THEN YOU'LL BE GIVEN A TOUR AROUND THE COMPANY..AND I WISH I WEAR SANDALS AT THAT POINT OF TIME CAUSE IT HAS THREE BUILDING AND WE HAVE TO WALK ALL THE WAY TO THE THIRD BULDING AS WE NEED TO MAKE OUT PERSONAL BADGE THERE AND THEN.. PERGH....

THEN THEY ADVISE US TO GO BACK TO THE TRAINING ROOM AND STARTED AGAIN THE 'COMPUTER SETUP' FOR THE DAY... IT WAS CRUCIAL..NO MISTAKE CAN BE ACCEPTED AND YOU NEED TO DO IT BY YOUR OWN WHILE BEING GUIDED BY THE 'TRAINER'.....

AND AFTER LUNCH WE WERE DIRECTED TO OWN OWN 'SPACIOUS' SPACE..HAHAHA...

WELL, I HOPE ITS GOING TO BE A GREAT NEW PLACE FOR ME....

ADIOS!!!!

MY LAST DAY IN PSMB.....(26 MAY 2011)

Dear friends and colleagues …. Assalamualaikum and Good Morning

As today is our English Day, please give me the opportunity to start this speech in English….

As everybody know that this is my last day in PSMB (officially it will be tomorrow). I would like to take this opportunity to say THANK YOU for every single thing that you have done to me.. i.e. for the support, the encouragement, the helps, the knowledge-sharing, the guidance and every little things that you can think of……

My 13 years and 8 months here has given me a lot of experience which I truly valued and appreciate. There would be no other place that will gives me the same working experience and friendship that I have developed and found here. This is my first jobs and I have start from the bottom and learn from scratch to be where I am today. Everybody knows that PSMB is our pride and place where we put our hope, faith and heart and I hope that it would remain the same forever for all of you and for me, deep down inside my heart. We might feel that there is something that we feel dissatisfied and uncomfortable while we’re working here, believe me, my 13 years and 8 months is not only filled with happiness and contentment. This is life!! There are times when we get scolded for what we didn’t know, there are times when we were punished for what we didn’t do, there were times when we were blamed for something that we didn’t commit and there were times when we feels like we didn’t deserve this!... But this doesn’t mean that we’re not good enough for our jobs, it didn’t mean we are incompetence, this doesn’t means we were stupid but it means we are HUMAN. Human tends to make mistake and human tend to be imperfect… that’s what we are. There is no such thing as PERFECTIONIST in this world as the only Perfectionist is ALLAH and we as HUMAN is lacking in every way except for HIM.

Therefore, as I leave this organization I have also make the decision to FORGIVE AND FORGET. I have decided to forgive every mistake that has been done towards me and forget all the negative things that has been thrown upon me. And I hope you as my friends and colleague would do the same. I need to move on, I need to start fresh and to do that I need to FORGIVE AND FORGET. This is my sincere feelings. I know as a leader and HUMAN, people tends to do silly things and forget that without their staff, they will not achieve anything and my 13 years of experience have given me more than enough for me to know and understand the way of life. I wish to express my sincere apologies for my staff..(you know who you are) because I feel as a team leader, I might have disappoint you in any way. I should have done more to protect you in any way that I can, and you may fells that I have not succeeded in doing it. I’M SORRY….

Hey, Today is not a sad day for me, it’s a HAPPY DAY… I finally get a change to opened up to new experiences, new environment, new culture and new opportunities. And I wish you ALL good luck in everything that you wanted to achieved and I hope that you do the same for me…And remember that “UNITED WE STAND!!” (group of 95’s)..Haha!!!


Lastly…CHEERS!!!!!

Sincerely,

Finance Executive
(1997 – 2011)

WHY BLOGGING????

WHY BLOGGING????

THIS IS THE FIRST QUESTION THAT I RECEIVE WHEN I TOLD SOMEBODY THAT I OWN A BLOG... SO I STARED HER AND STRAT THINKING....... WHY DID I INNITIALLY SET UP A BLOG...

ANSWER: TO EXPRESS MYSELF.......

I HAVE SO MUCH THAT I CAN WRITE AND THINK BUT I CANT SEEM TO EXPRESS MYSELF.. AT SOME POINT OF TIME..I'M ALMOST LOSING MY MIND WHICH MEANS I CANT THINK AND I CANT FUNCTION WELL......

ONE WAY THAT I NEED TO DO IS TO EXPRESS MYSELF.. I DONT NEED PEOPLE TO COMMENT MY WRITINGS OR EVEN READ IT.. ITS JUST A WAY FOR ME TO RELEASE MYSELF... AND I'M NOT THAT FREE AND EASY UP TO THAT I CAN SPENT AT LEAST 30 MINUTES BLOGGING... I CANT DO THAT...

WHAT I REALLY NEED IS WHEN I FEEL DOWN, EXCITED, SAD, BLURR, TIRED, ESTATIC OR ANY FEELING THAT I MIGHT FEEL AND I NEED TO FIND A WAY TO EXPRESS IT... I JUST NEED TO TYPE THE THING AND POST IT SOMEWHERE....

WHY NOT FACEBOOK???...

WELL ..... SOMETIMES WE JUST WANTED TO WRITE SOMETHING WITHOUT PEOPLE JUDGE YOU... YOU ARE RITE OR WRONG... FACEBOOK IS WHERE YOU CAN LIMIT YOURSELF IN EXPRESSING YOURSELF,,.. ITS FAST... BUT PEOPLE WILL START TO JUDGE YOU.. I ALWAYS GET COMMENTS LIKE YOU LOOKED SOO STRESSED.... WHAT HAPPEN?..WHY?..SHARE??... NOPE.. THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANT... I WANT A PEACE PLACE WHERE I CAN THROW ANYTHING THAT I FEEL AND WANTED TO TELL...

THATS IT... MY PIECE OF MIND....

YESS....ITS A LONG ONE.. HAHAHAH....

-ADIOS!!-

MARI BELAJO.......

hari ni belajo mencantikkan gambo... from blur to beautifool..hahahah

So..gambo..after

Gambo before............... cantikk tak????

......waqi..... masa kecik-kecik.. bercuti ngan family ayah di Cameron....

INTERESTED????..... PLEASE APPLY!!...

PEMBANGUNAN SUMBER MANUSIA BERHAD (545143-D)

Pembangunan Sumber Manusia Berhad, a company under the Ministry of Human Resources is looking for a results oriented, fully committed to fill up the following position:

ACCOUNT EXECUTIVE

1 Position

Responsibilities:

The incumbent will be responsible to manage collection of levy and handling full set of accounts.

Requirement :

· Possess Degree in Accounting or equivalent.

· Excellent interpersonal, communication and presentation skills.

· Strong command of oral, written English and Bahasa Malaysia.

· Must be resourceful, process driven, high level of commitment and be able to cope with tight work schedules.

If you think you meet the above criteria, kindly submit your detailed resume including photocopy of certificates, I/C, recent passport sized photograph (nr), present and expected salaries before 5 APRIL 2011.

PEMBANGUNAN SUMBER MANUSIA BERHAD

WISMA PSMB,

JALAN BERINGIN BUKIT DAMANSARA

50490 KUALA LUMPUR

(ATTN: CORPORATE AFFAIRS AND HUMAN RESOURCES DIVISION) EMAIL : hr@hrdf.com.my

Michael Bolton How am I supposed to live without you - live HQ

Terkenang semasa dulu........ zaman sekolah... duduk dengar walkman wawa... hehehhehe


I could hardly believe it
When I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone swept you heart away
From the look upon your face I see it's true
So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before I go

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone

I didn't come here for cryin'
Didn't come here to breakdown
It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end
An how can I blame you
When I built my world around
The hope that someday we'd be so much more than friends
And I don't wanna know the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than I can take

And I don't wanna face the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming
Now that your dream has come true

I HAVE A DREAM..............

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail

I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile

I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail

I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

IGAUAN MALAM TADI........AKAN MENJADI REALITIKAH???

PART 1

Lelaki itu memandangku sekali imbas. Perasankah aku?. Kubelek synopsis buku itu sekali lagi. Sebual novel dari penulis terkenal dari tanah kelahiran Amerika Syarikat. Sinopsis yang menarik tetapi semakin lama kubaca terasa semakin hambar jalan cerita. Betulkah bestseller?

Sekali lagi lelaki itu memandangku. Aish…boleh tak senang duduk aku. Dia hendak bertanya ker? Hatiku berdetik. Kalu diikutkan dari raut wajah mukanya, macam bukan dari Malaysia. Walaupun matanya sepet seperti aktor Leon Lai Meng tetapi raut wajahnya yang hampir sepenuhnya ditutupi snowcap itu memang sukat dilihat. Cara pemakaiannya berlainan sekali. Walaupun hanya mengenakan seluar jeans baggy dan sweater yang berhood tetapi stylenya menunjukkan yang dia bukan dari Malaysia atau Singapura.

Tempat dudukku rasa panas. Hatiku mula rasa cemas. Cemas bukan apa..takut bila dia bertanya, macam cerita ayam dan itik lagaknya. Aku rasa perlu menghentikan pandangannya. Pelikkah aku, seorang wanita bertudung di Lapangan Terbang di tanah asing ini? Aku perhatikan sekelilingku. Tiada seorang pun, wanita yang bertudung. Hmm..takkan lelaki ini tak pernah melihat orang yang bertudung. Yang penting aku tahu lelaki ini bukan calang-calang orang kerana jam tangannya berjenama, tali pinggangnya, cincinnya, rantainya pun sudah menunjukkan status hidupnya. Tetapi aku yang masih disini di dalam bilik VIP Lounge ini yang hanya memakai sepasang snickers, sehelai jeans dan sehelai t-shirt lengan panjang.

Pandangan yang terus dari lelaki itu menghentikan nikmat pembacaanku. Aku menutup buku, menarik nafas panjang dan terus mengangkat mukaku dan merenung tepat pada matanya. Dia terpaku. Kulemparkan sebuah senyuman ikhlas. Senyuman paling manis pada abad ini. Dia seakan tersentak dan melarikan anak matanya. Kemudian dia memandangku lagi. Kali ini mata kami bertaut. Diapun melemparkan senyuman padaku.

“Hi…” Aku memberanikan diri menghentikan sesi pandang memandang kami. Aku bukanlah berani, tetapi renungannya merimaskan dan tidak memberi ketengan padaku.
“Hi..” sepatah katanya sambil malu-malu memandangku.
“Anything?” tanyaku spontan sambil mengangkat keningku. Aku persis srikandi yang begitu berani.
“Huh?” Kerutnya di dahi menandakan dia tak mengerti maksudku.
“I mean anything you need to ask or say because it seems that you have a question marks written all over your face” jelasku padanya
“Anhyi…Oh! I’m sorry. No. Nothing” jawabnya sambil menggelengkan kepala.
Aku hanya tersenyum memandangnya. Dia sedikit tergamam dan tersentak padaku. ‘Anhyi?’..bisik hatiku…hmm orang korea….
“Okay, then. I should continue with my book” balasku.
“Well, if u don’t mind. You seem so absorb with those book. Can I see them for a while” tanyanya padaku. Fasih juga Bahasa Inggeris dia. Selalunya orang Korea memang kurang fasih di dalam Bahasa Inggeris.
“Oh! It’s the book. Sure why not?” jawabku. Aku menghulurkan buku itu padanya. Dia menyambutnya. Jarinya kulihat sungguh runcing, halus dan begitu tertib. Jarang dapat melihat lelaki yang mempunyai jari dan kuku yang begitu menarik. Pasti dia biasa membuat manicure. Aku lihat buku itu dibelek-belek . Dia membaca synopsis buku itu dan tersenyum.
‘It’s a love story…” ulasnya
“Yes..” jawabku ringkas. Dia tersenyum meleret.
Salahkah membaca sebuah novel cinta. Atau kerana novel itu dihasilkan oleh seorang warga Amerika atau…
“Sorry, I don’t mean to sound judgemental but I’ve never tried to read this kind of book” jelasnya padaku. Mungkin kerana melihat riak perubahan dimukaku maka dia menjelaskannya.
“Well, its okay.” Jawabku. No it not okay sebenarnya. Tapi kerana masih menjaga budi bahasaku maka aku memaniskan muka. Just for the sake of appearance. Hipokrasikah aku?

Dia menghulurkan buku itu padaku. Kalau kurenung dari penampilannya, dia masih muda dan belia. Lebih muda dariku. Tetapi jika dilihat dari susuh tubuhnya dan wajahnya, dia seakan lebih tua padaku. Benarkah orang kata lelaki luar lebih matang dari usianya dari lelaki di Malaysia.

Aku melayan perasaan sendiri. Walaupun buku dibuka dan aku masih pura-pura membaca, tetapi fikiranku menerawang jauh. Melayang memikirkan masa lampau.

END OF PART 1